OH MY GOD THIS BLOG IS MINE?

oh my gosh
seriously , i was surprised if this blog is mine.. how can i write junk post like that which share about fuckin crap?
ahhaha.. i hope no one read this blog,, but i know it was many ppl visit me

Okey than,.,
Happy new year!
hope this year indonesia gettin better
n wish the best for everything :)

today

I wish god makes my heart numb..
cuz my friends always mocking me i'm easy to hurt, pain etc
n cuz of i'm easy to broken when loving someone..

I'll do the best with my zero experience, i'll learn more more more than what u learn
thanks to make me burning.

can u hear me

i dunno what i feel now.. but it so hurt when i dream my father , my father who's RIP olredi... he was angry n didn't say anything om my dream.. i know i have many mistakes.. but please forgive me.. i always pray for u everyday n thinking bout u every single time ..

I dunno

I knoe god if someday my story will b sad ending, because im too happy right now
But i have little wishes, If tat day comin.. I hope god can change me b a strong woman

love this lyric so much

바람꽃 (baramkkoc) – ( WindFlower)

*OST The Great Queen Seon Deok – Yushin and Deokman –*

이대로 돌아설 거면 사라질 거면
idaero doraseol geomyeon sarajil geomyeon

If I turn my back like this, If I disappear

피어나지 않았어
pieonaji anhasseo

I wouldn’t come into bloom

이렇게 바라보면서 숨이 막히면
ireoke barabomyeonseo sumi makhimyeon

If I just look at you like this

눈을 감은 채 살아도 좋을까
nuneul gameun chae sarado joheulkka

It might be good to live with my eyes closed

보지 않아도 보여서
boji anhado boyeoseo

Without looking, I see you

듣지 않아도 들려서
deutji anhado deullyeoseo

Without listening I hear you

그대 숨결에 다시 살아난 바람꽃처럼
geudae sumgyeore dasi saranan baramkkoccheoreom

Like a wind flower which revived by your breathing

가고 싶어도 못 가는
gago sipeodo mot ganeu

I wish to reach you, but I can’t

안고 싶어도 못 안는
ango sipeodo mot anneun

I wish to hold you, but I can’t

그대 손끝이 내 맘에 닿으니
geudae sonkkeuchi nae mame daheuni

Your fingertips reach my heart

긴 긴 밤이 지나고 나면 알까
gin gin bami jinago namyeon alkka

Will you know, after long long night?

눈물 속에 웃고 있는 사랑을
nunmul soge utgo inneun sarangeul

The love smiling in tears

잡고 싶어도 못 잡는 가고 싶어도 못 가는
japgo sipeodo mot jamneun gago sipeodo mot ganeun

I wish to catch you, but I can’t, I wish to reach you, but I can’t

그대 마음에 다시 살아난 바람꽃처럼
geudae maeume dasi saranan baramkkoccheoreom

Like a wind flower which revived in your heart

보지 않아도 보여서 듣지 않아도 들려서
boji anhado boyeoseo deutji anhado deullyeoseo

Even I don’t see you, I saw you Even I don’t hear you, I heard you

바람에 실려 흩어져 날리며
barame sillyeo heuteojyeo nallimyeo

Getting scattered in the wind

그대 마음에 흩어져 날리며
geudae maeume heuteojyeo nallimyeo

:((

If I just look at u like this,It might be good to live with my eyes closed
Without looking, I see u..Without listening I hear you
Like a wind flower which revived by ur breathing
I wish to reach u, but I can’t..I wish to hold u, but I can’t
ur fingertips reach my heart
...Will u know, after long long night?..The love smiling in tears

:(

im so sad..
im so hurt..
:(

:D

If u feel none for u..
think of God.. if God always with u..

when u hv problem thats make u hurt dont talk too much for everyone.. it just make u more hurt , couse we dont know what they r thinking about our problem is he or she really listen to us? really give soullution? whos know?, our mom or bro sister.. if me.. i'll choose keep silent..

are ever u love sum1 who doesn't love u or u cant love her or him couse of something?
its really painful.. what should we do? is that cry alone? like a drama korean movie.. if she's feel so hurt.. she always run.. then find quiet place to cry n she said "im just wild bird who always fly away n cry alone"
n if my heart so beaten my chest so sick.. dunno why

if u want cry but u cant cry just now.. n u cant hold ur tears ,
dont thinking what u feel ay that moment it just make u wan to cry..
if me i'll take right time to cry.. when none see me..its better than u cry in front of crowds

be brave girl.. be strong girl.. dont easy to love some1 couse also easy to broke or hurt

:D

hard to say ...
just wanna say im no in mood ~~
:)
Hopeless
Careless
Timeless
Qienless
loveless
everything is less
my weight oso.. ~_~

will be back

i'll be back ! seeeeeeeeee yaaaaaaaa~

so long time!

how i miss this blog..
i dun have time for share something
yea...
now what im going to tell ya?
ehmm
just now,
i've be new college student..
then
i've been living in boarding house
nu life sometime think better than my old life but sometime nope
but make it flow la..

missing what?

(•`ö˘•)

Yeah! we have graduated , and we have been being an university student!
and feel how i miss ya guys!
missing my classroom which damn noisy!

i missing someone who sat beside me (nope beside me but near with me)
i missing someone who always asked my foods n my mineral water..
now i dunno for who i must to share my food,
i missing someone who always send me message till asleep
i missing who love his football player very much! n always write his 1st name with his idol fan for da last name on his texting
i missing someone who very smart on math subject n sometimes help me to write d correct answer!

we're so farrrrrr .. hopefully u will b the best nurse , n wish me to be an chef pastry!

take care of ur self!

AS A MAN (Love this song)

A new start is always frightening
But at least this time I truly believe it’s love
Trying to be more happy than my painful separation
You and we should promise eternity and swear on it

But frequent interest may give minor pressures
Might get annoyed of the long calls I don’t want to end
You might call the expanding love, obsession
As time goes by I’m getting smaller

Since you’re a man, since you’re a man, you wouldn’t know even if you died
Since I’m lacking, Since I’m foolish, I’m only looking at you
Since you’re a man, since you’re a man, you don’t understand me
You probably just want to be free, you probably won’t be able to change, because you’re a man

You’re next to me but why does my heart feel empty
Why is it that your words “I love you” don’t sound the same as before
the long waits are getting harder and harder
I think of giving up hundreds of times

I feel uneasy and can’t sleep until you fall asleep
I go crazy when I can’t contact you throughout the night
I’m not a woman who expects many things
But I collapse from one of your inattentive words

Since you’re a man, since you’re a man, you wouldn’t know even if you died
Since I’m lacking, Since I’m foolish, I’m only looking at you
Since you’re a man, since you’re a man, you don’t understand me
You probably just want to be free, you probably won’t be able to change, because you’re a man

I still feel like when we first met
I flutter in front of your smile
But even these small expressions are nowhere to be found between us
But since you’re a man, since you’re my man I still love you

Since you’re a man, since you’re a man, you wouldn’t know even if you died
Since I’m lacking, Since I’m foolish, I’m only looking at you
Since you’re a man, since you’re a man, you don’t understand me
You probably just want to be free, you probably won’t be able to change, because you’re a man

새로운 시작은 언제나 두렵죠
saeroun sijageun eonjena duryeopjyo
하지만 이번만큼은 사랑이라 꼭 믿어요
hajiman ibeonmankeumeun sarangira kkok mideoyo
아 팠던 이별 보다 더 행복해지려고
apatdeon ibyeol boda deo haengbokhaejiryeogo
그 대와 우리 영원을 약속하고 맹세하죠
geudaewa uri yeongwoneul yaksokhago maengsehajyo

하지만 잦은 관심이 작은 부담이 되겠죠
hajiman jajeun gwansimi jageun budami doegetjyo
끊기 싫은 긴 통화를 점점 귀찮아하겠죠
kkeunki sirheun gin tonghwareul jeomjeom gwichanhahagetjyo
커지는 사랑을 그댄 집착이라 하고
keojineun sarangeul geudaen jipchagira hago
시간이 갈수록 난 이렇게 작아지는걸
sigani galsurok nan ireoke jagajineungeol

그 댄 남자라서 남자라서 죽어도 몰라요
geudaen namjaraseo namjaraseo jugeodo mollayo
내 가 부족해서 너무 못나서 그대만 바라보고 있죠
naega bujokhaeseo neomu motnaseo geudaeman barabogo itjyo
그댄 남자라서 남자라서 날 이해 못하죠
geudaen namjaraseo namjaraseo nal ihae motajyo
그저 자유롭고 싶겠죠 변할 수는 없겠죠 남자라서
geujeo jayuropgo sipgetjyo byeonhal suneun eopgetjyo namjaraseo

내 곁에 있는데 왜 맘이 허전하죠
nae gyeote inneunde wae mami heojeonhajyo
사 랑한단 말투가 왜 난 예전 같지 않죠
saranghandan maltuga wae nan yejeon gatji anchyo
기나긴 기다림이 난 갈수록 어려워
ginagin gidarimi nan galsurok eoryeowo
포기하고 싶다고 수백번을 생각하죠
pogihago sipdago subaekbeoneul saenggakhajyo

그대가 잠들기 전 난 불안해 잠 못 이루고
geudaega jamdeulgi jeon nan buranhae jam mot irugo
밤새도록 연락이 끊기면 미쳐버리죠
bamsaedorok yeollagi kkeunkimyeon michyeobeorijyo
많은걸 바라는 그런 여자가 아닌데
manheungeol baraneun geureon yeojaga aninde
무심한 한마디 말에 난 또 무너지는걸
musimhan hanmadi mare nan tto muneojineungeol

그댄 남자라서 남자라서 죽어도 몰라요
geudaen namjaraseo namjaraseo jugeodo mollayo
내가 부족해서 너무 못나서 그대만 바라보고 있죠
naega bujokhaeseo neomu motnaseo geudaeman barabogo itjyo
그댄 남자라서 남자라서 날 이해 못하죠
geudaen namjaraseo namjaraseo nal ihae motajyo
그저 자유롭고 싶겠죠 변할 수는 없겠죠 남자라서
geujeo jayuropgo sipgetjyo byeonhal suneun eopgetjyo namjaraseo

난 여전히 우리 처음 만난 그날 같은데
nan yeojeonhi uri cheoeum mannan geunal gateunde
그대 미소 앞에 한없이 또 설레이는데
geudae miso ape haneobsi tto seolleineunde
이런 작은 표현 조차 우리에겐 어색해
ireon jageun pyohyeon jocha uriegen eosaekhae
하지만 남자라서 내 남자라서 아직도 그댈 사랑해요
hajiman namjaraseo nae namjaraseo ajikdo geudael saranghaeyo

그 댄 남자라서 남자라서 죽어도 몰라요
geudaen namjaraseo namjaraseo jugeodo mollayo
내 가 부족해서 너무 못나서 그대만 바라보고 있죠
naega bujokhaeseo neomu motnaseo geudaeman barabogo itjyo
그댄 남자라서 남자라서 날 이해 못하죠
geudaen namjaraseo namjaraseo nal ihae motajyo
그저 자유롭고 싶겠죠 변할 수는 없겠죠 남자라서
geujeo jayuropgo sipgetjyo byeonhal suneun eopgetjyo namjaraseo

Jia Yous!

I am Ok!

every things is gonna b Ok!

Jia u!

Regret

Im so spendthirft
now im regret when im going to b university student
when im still high school , so much money flow so waste
bought so many dvd's
food culinary ,
hair masker, creambath, new phone
n too many use my card till d saldo almost all over
now
i had cut my hair very short, so boyish
ahaha
i dun need hair which one just waste time n money
n when i am need something i just try to passion if someday when i get a job i'll buy it by my money

wat i was feeling

I dislike this situation...
please my mind throw tat things

23:42

I am an orphan, now I feel so hard to selfish
I want can finance my self in university
I don't want to burden my brothers, especially my mom
im not rich and i not poor..
my sisters and brothers had own life..
so I must build my life for me, for tomorrow, for my aspiration,, and my mom

:)

we can dream it , we can do it


i'll fight!

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